Unfortunately this subject is above my pay grade, so I gave up :)
Don't feel like that. Even though I'm still a complete layman in everything with massive imposter syndrome, I never felt like I would "never" understand something, because some part of my brain intuitively realizes that if other humans were able to figure something out then I should be able to too.
If something doesn't make sense, it's because I haven't take the same "journey" from the point of view of those scientists who did, I'm just seeing the end result without everything that it's built from and on, and that's where the investment of time and effort comes in, which I am OK with not putting in for things that aren't immediately relative to me, but it's certainly not an "intelligence ceiling".