It burned me out and I basically quit gaming for the last 10 years, now that I think about it. Some sim or resource games here and there, nothing multiplayer and nothing "reactive". Maybe a few hours a month.
Anyway, I reflected on it as this big waste of time, so I felt I had to grind at life instead. Games are a waste of time, do something productive. I'm only now appreciating the anxiety that caused.
This intern I work with is a gamer and asks me if I play anything. I realize I'm older than his mom so he's really getting a kick of my stories cause "I'm like too old to play games haha, wow that's crazy"
He said something like "you can afford it, how do you not have a gaming computer bro?" I thought, he's got a point.
So I find a tricked out craigslist gaming computer a few weeks ago and download some games on steam. I was floored at A. What games have become and how fuckin good they look B. How much fun I was having and C. How I was able to soothe anxiety
Just do what you like with your spare time, if it makes you happy and doesn't fuck your life up, do it.
“I do,” Dunbar told him.
“Why?” Clevinger asked.
“What else is there?”
Everyone needs a hobby, for many that's video games. For some of those, a single / specific game becomes their singular hobby. See also: special interests.
I for one have been in a specific video game community for twenty years now even though I haven't engaged with the games much myself. But I know people who have, who tore the game apart, found unused content and are making mods to restore it [0], who retranslated the game(s)[1] , turned them into novels [2], D&D campaigns [3], play a poorly received spinoff over and over again for years to finish some levels in seconds [4], etc etc etc.
I think it's a bit sad to pooh-pooh other people's passions tbh.
[0] https://www.shinraarchaeology.com/retransmod.html
[1] https://thelifestream.net/category/lifestream-projects/translations/
[2] https://www.patreon.com/posts/52273334
[3] https://drive.google.com/file/d/1ydIyBrJ0diEYzWz28_4y7Z38rzWCvYXQ/view
[4] https://www.youtube.com/@Shademp/videos?view=0&sort=dd&shelf_id=3
That said, the reality for a lot of people living in the US at the moment (and for a while now) is that they have to work multiple jobs and / or gigs like uber to make ends meet.