Myself.
More specifically, my mental health. I'm a bit of a mess, and I'm not sure I'll be able to properly commit to any external endeavors until I'm feeling better inside.
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Embracing the solitude and the mindset that no one is coming to save me has sparked a bunch of motivation (out of spite) to improve myself. Started to workout regularly which has been a huge help for my mind and body. Starting to peel back layers of things that happened during childhood now.
Wish you the best of luck on your journey.